Alcohol

I’ve consumed a lot of alcohol. Not too sure of the exact amount and not too sure of when I did it, but I did it. I was at my little brother’s graduation today. It saddened me deeply. I feel like I just graduated, and I’d give anything just to go back to those times. This is probably why I drank so much tonight.

I don’t know where to go from here. Life is so mysterious to me. I feel like if I put all my efforts into obtaining money I won’t be happy and if I don’t put any effort into I’ll feel worthless. What the fuck do I do? As I was listening to the speakers at the graduation I couldn’t help but think, “Don’t tell these poor children this, it’s only false hope”. How’s that for pessimism.

I really am going to try and be more optimistic, but I can’t promise anything. There’s too much bullshit out there and the good times are too short-lived. Once you graduate high school, there’s nothing but disappointment and heartbreak out there for you.

MTV Movie Awards

Yes, Andy Sandberg is hilarious. But fuck MTV and the ridiculous shit they organize. How could High School Musical 3 beat Slumdog Millionaire in anything? Have I seen either of those films? No, but I can assure that the film of the year at the Academy Awards pisses all over each and every corner of High School Musical 3.

And it’s not even that shit that pisses me off. It’s the rappers and celebrities that are forcing themselves to be there even though deep down inside they hate everything MTV stands for. I don’t know how the dark side got to Andy Sandberg and other various celebrities, but I’ve come to the inevitable realization that MTV creates and destroys everything. That shit show they call the VMA’s is nothing but a bunch of junkies crammed into a building.