Alcohol

I’ve consumed a lot of alcohol. Not too sure of the exact amount and not too sure of when I did it, but I did it. I was at my little brother’s graduation today. It saddened me deeply. I feel like I just graduated, and I’d give anything just to go back to those times. This is probably why I drank so much tonight.

I don’t know where to go from here. Life is so mysterious to me. I feel like if I put all my efforts into obtaining money I won’t be happy and if I don’t put any effort into I’ll feel worthless. What the fuck do I do? As I was listening to the speakers at the graduation I couldn’t help but think, “Don’t tell these poor children this, it’s only false hope”. How’s that for pessimism.

I really am going to try and be more optimistic, but I can’t promise anything. There’s too much bullshit out there and the good times are too short-lived. Once you graduate high school, there’s nothing but disappointment and heartbreak out there for you.

MTV Movie Awards

Yes, Andy Sandberg is hilarious. But fuck MTV and the ridiculous shit they organize. How could High School Musical 3 beat Slumdog Millionaire in anything? Have I seen either of those films? No, but I can assure that the film of the year at the Academy Awards pisses all over each and every corner of High School Musical 3.

And it’s not even that shit that pisses me off. It’s the rappers and celebrities that are forcing themselves to be there even though deep down inside they hate everything MTV stands for. I don’t know how the dark side got to Andy Sandberg and other various celebrities, but I’ve come to the inevitable realization that MTV creates and destroys everything. That shit show they call the VMA’s is nothing but a bunch of junkies crammed into a building.

Choosing the Night’s Mate

It seems that every time I go out I am disappointed with human nature. I have a girlfriend whom I love very much, so every time I go out drinking I find myself as sort of a bystander. Everybody else tries desperately to find someone worthy of making love to, and I stand there and watch all the fails and passes of the evening. And let me tell you something, I am not happy with the way people interact.

It’s always the good guys/girls that are standing in the corner, hoping that someone decently attractive approaches them, and it’s always the shitheads that are too stupid to realize that all they are doing is fucking their lives up by impregnating some dumb whore. I see so much shit that pisses me off at bars it makes me want to bottle every single person in there over the head.

So guys, if you’re a decent hardworking man and can’t find the right girl, don’t go to bars. Every girl in there is an utter whore. You’re wasting your time.

Girls, if you’re trying to meet a guy at a bar, you’re nothing but a whore. The real men aren’t where you are, so get the fuck out.

It seems that good people are so rare in this world, and it’s depressing each time I venture out. From time to time my buddies and I will go out, and each night I find myself wanting to be at my apartment with girlfriend, watching TV and eating some nice food. I recommend this to anyone trying to find some sort of peace in their life.

Night life is shitheads and whores.

Shrooms

I went on an adventure last night and the destination was the corners of my own brain. I’ve taken these things before, but last night was magical. I took them with my cousin who I’ve known my entire life. I highly recommend taking them with someone that is close to you, especially if you feel your relationship has hit turbulence as of late.

My roommate came home in the middle of our trip and he was more than happy to take us for a ride (we were in no position to operate a motor vehicle). I looked at the same scenery that I have looked at countless times, but this time it was totally different. Words can’t describe how it was different, because these feelings and perceptions were so insane.

I highly recommend grabbing someone that you love and taking some psychotropic mushrooms, atleast once in your life. It’s truly an awesome experience.

Fishing

Just got home after a day of fishing. I’m not an avid fisherman, but I’ve took part in my fair share. I’ve had many frustrating days, cursing at the water and whatnot in hopes the fish would accept my harsh words and take the bait. There was no cursing today, and I caught about a dozen large/small mouth bass.

Let me tell you something fishing. Fuck worms. Fuck rubber bait. Fuck anything that isn’t a shiner. If someone tells you shiners are cheap and using them isn’t really fishing, tell them to fuck themselves with one of your dozen fish you have.

Use shiners (teeny weeny fish, guppies, minnows, etc.)

Love,

Arrin

XBox 360

Playing XBox after work is rewarding. Sitting there, high off my ass, lost in a world of guns and fake death. Sounds anything but enjoyable, but it’s great. If you don’t have an XBox leave your chair right now and go get one. You won’t regret it.

Sunshine

It is absolutely beautiful out. I can see the leaves starting their lives from my apartment window. Remarkable how they come back each and every year. Springtime in New England is truly fantastic.

The temperature is 71 degrees and there are barely any clouds in the sky, and yet I am still in my room. I wish I was outside, but there’s just nothing to keep myself occupied while I’m out there. Some people go for walks or just lay out in the sun, but I live in an area where both of those activities could become quite dangerous for a young caucasian male.

So I’ll just appreciate the world from my window until the time to leave for work comes. I look forward to having a home of my own so I can appreciate all the gifts nature gives to us regularly. The sun is like a Santa Claus that never leaves the sky. No reindeer though, they would just melt.